honestly, me too. but its okay. even though im crying as im typing this, we will be okay. and if you're perfectly fine right now, please don't read this, theres no point. but hey, its okay, even if it seems like your life is falling apart, what really can you do other than fight through it? its really hard, i know, im battling exams right now, which i know may seem very small compared to whatever issue you're going through, and im sorry, but this is tearing me apart right now. i know that this is dumb, and in the future ill have bigger reasons to be torn apart, but currently this is me. anyway, youll be okay, since when did you not get past your hardships? failure is something that everyone experiences. even my smartest friend feels like a failure since shes chasing perfection in every aspect. and even though i look at her and think "what can she possibly be sad about?" im sure some people look at you and think the same way too. heck, some people might even look at me and think that, but we're all still sad and broken, arent we?
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when you are upset or sad or angry, how do you cope? i wish i can see how other people deal with such annoying emotions, and learn from them if they're successful. I should be able to deal with stuff like stress and anxiety about the future and sadness, but honestly, i haven't been dealing with it well these past few days. I am crying a lot, and i think it is bc of hormones since im gonna get my period soon, but also because its exam week and i am so stressed out. I mean, what if i dont get accepted into univeristy and get a shot at what i want to become? what i want to become is so far-fetched for someone as mediocre as me, and if i do attempt to pursue it I KNOW i will face many more emotional roller coasters and uneccessary stress and despair like this... but if i dont, i might regret not chasing after my initial goals, and regret it? should i go after my dreams, even if i know i will die 1000 times, since i am not naturally smart? or should i be smart in another sense, and allow myself to get a steady mediocre job, and allow myself to avoid extra stress and sadness from pursuing my current aspiration? what should i do? how do you deal with these decisions? im so freaking young but i am such a worrier and this is so extra, and i am so extra and pretentious on here and i hate myself... okay no i take that back i mustn't hate myself, but like what do i do? how do you make your life decisions?
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- is a vegetarian - has a unique voice (super soft, girly, low, calming, pleasing to the ear, low, etc) - is humorous - is popular - is pretty - is smart/high achiever - is a low achiever - is ugly - is tall - is short - has acne - has red hair - has white skin - has yellow skin - has clear face - has black skin - has a normal voice - is human Thank you, and yes I know I do.
So today i had my french exam, and i found out my results for this other section of the exam (the average for this section was 70), and guess what i got? 53. I got 53 percent. So much for hoping and working towards achieving an A... My french mark is gonna suck by the end, and why do i feel like all my three other courses are gonna go down too? I guess because I haven't began studying for them yet, and I really should because others have already.... Why am i like this I do look dead irl btw, I am also ugly. Not trying to gain sympathy or anything, so no need for crap like "ya right there's beauty in everyone" or stuff like "be more confident! i'm sure you're pretty in one way or another". because no. Sorry for this pessimistic post. Again, this post will focus on school but I guess these tips/lessons can be applied elsewhere too.
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